Fourth baby ,sixth pregnancy at 30


I just had my first period since having my son, my rainbow baby in October 2018 after two miscarriages in 2017 ...I’ve just slowed my breastfeeding to only nights so I guess my body finally allowed it ....only to go find out at the dr appointment where I was tryna get my new birth control that I’m pregnant with what would now be my fourth child I’m in shock and overwhelmed with emotion it’s the last thing I expected be honest I thought I was done having kids but I’m totally against abortion and after losing two that only strengthened that belief but having a 10 year old and 6 year old who constantly have sibling rivalry lol and my baby who’s about to be one getting ready to potty train it’s so much pressure thinking of another baby this soon and then there’s the thought of if I miscarriage again