Panicking about going back to work

Anyone else already panicking about the thought of going back to work after maternity leave ? I’m trying soooo hard not to worry about it and to enjoy the rest of my pregnancy but I’m so worried. I’ll be taking 12 weeks off then using the rest of my NY paid family leave act one day off a week so I only have to work 4 days a week instead of 5 which will bring me til about May of doing that. But I can’t stop running through so many things in my head and trying to think of different scenarios as to how I can just be home with my baby. I’m a nurse so I have so many options when it comes to working, and I childcare all figured out. My mom is going to retire and we’re going to pay her to watch the baby but I just can’t stop thinking why pay someone else when I could be with my baby? We have other bills to pay that we couldn’t just pay on my husbands income so I need to work but I am just sooooo stressed over this and I know it’s just going to get worse when he’s here cause I’ll just want to stay home with him even more😩 if you’ve made it this far thanks for reading my panicking rant I just don’t know what to do 😭 and just hoping I’m not the only one feeling like this. Any other moms who have any advice on how to cope with going back to work after maternity leave ?