I don’t know what to do

To not make this long.... my husband and I been dating 4 years and a year married with a baby who is 15 months old. He cheated on me back in December and I discovered around March and all that time were making love no protection. He stop he said he wouldn’t do that again cause he doesn’t want to lose his family. I was blind (kinda of, I’m still blind) cause he fucked another girl, not the same one it was a different girl he met on tinder, again and he told me that he stop and that didn’t mean nothing to him. And once again I discovered one recently back In June and again he said didn’t meant nothing to him. Since then he said he changed he’s dedicated to us and blah blah blah. But obviously I don’t believe him. Of course how could i? I feel like I don’t love him anymore. I’m desire to meet new people I want to cheat on him. I want

To feel

Loved I want someone who doesn’t cheat on me. I’m not going to sit here and say that I deserve it or what I did wrong. Cause I’m

Not the problem, he is. And I can’t be with him. he did me so

Dirty I just wanted a family and a role model to my kid. Not this. I feel empty