My half sister part 33

Sarah

I was awoken slightly by Chris sitting up quickly next to me. I instantly missed his arms from around me but was warm and content enough that I was happy enough to stay here and wait for him to come back. So I lay still keeping my eyes closed as I weighed up whether or not I fancied a quickly.

"I told you to stop calling." I heard Chris voice whispering. "look I know you really think I'd forget that" he sighed, "look I get it... I fucking know that. Look things here. I... I fucked up OK. Monumentally.. I know I've got to go but I've screwed everyone's lives up again I can't just run off. Look I know that but... I can't stop it... logic doesn't not engage around Sarah... She controls my heart. Of course she doesn't know, stupid question. I can't... No... No I can't.. What do you mean why?Just tell her? No. Look I don't need... That won't help.. I'm not doing that.,.. no way I'm not doing that, because she will try and fucking fix it she's practically married and she doesn't see that as a problem... I won't fucking make her do that it's been fucking six years we've both changed, she just doesn't want to acknowledge that.... No don't "he groaned," look babes I know look Im coming home tomorrow ill make an excuse and you give me this lecture to my face.... The monumental screw up?I told a little 5 year old I was his dad. "I bit my lip as I heard Chris breath catch I was pretty sure he was crying." what the fuck do you mean why lily because he is my fucking son? Yeah but I can't be a fucking dad. Look lily we'll talk about this tomorrow OK. OK... I know I love you too. "

A second later I felt the mattress move as Chris settled down next to me and put his arms back around me kissed the back of my neck and snuggled down. I couldn't believe he was going to sleep couldn't he

hear my heart breaking in two.💔

Sorry its such a short chapter and sorry if I've dissapointed some of you but I'm not quite finished with this story yet but don't worry I have a plan! but as always all feedback is welcome ❤️❤️❤️