Moving on...I think 🤔

It’s been about a month since I’ve broke things of with my 2 1/2 year long term “Friend with benefit”🙄 Initially it was fun, we vibe strong, conversation was always on point, sex had never been dull with us, if anything it was mind blowing. It felt as if we were making love. It was very passionate, we would look each other in the eyes and watch one another climax, we would kiss and hold hands... it was enchanting!! He touched parts of my vagina that no man has ever touched 😳😂Needless to say, I started to catch feelings and wanted more from him. Unfortunately, the feeling was not mutual so I decided to cut him off. I told him that I wanted a full commitment and he told me he didn’t want a GF so I bounced!! We have always been honest and upfront with one another so I suspect that there isn’t anyone else. He claims that when he decide to be with someone that it will be his Ex, who according to him, is currently in a long term relationship and has no intentions of getting back with him. However, he calls me to come spend the night with him, or to help him out with things all the time. Basically, anything to get me over. I can’t help feeling that I’m torturing myself by not getting that itch scratched 😰🤒Any positive non judging feedback is appreciated!! 😁