Maybe it’s not worth it anymore

I am 9 weeks pregnant and I am married but i know it’s bad to say this because I have always wanted a baby and I was trying for awhile till I got pregnant but I regret it.... because honestly it has not been easy for me.... my husband does not understand how hard it is to even cook a meal for him without throwing up... all he cares about is if he eats or not.... he was yelling today saying how the rice is uncooked and I showed him by eating it and it wasn’t even bad.... and he got mad more when I told him I did not cook chicken today so he ended up eating bread with soup and I have not ate much all day.... he did not even ask me to come and eat or even said sorry to yelling at me for trying to cook again.... I can’t stand the smell of the kitchen and all he cares about is his stomach..... he always yells at me and I am so tired of him yelling so I just don’t say anything and leave to go to a different room.... I am always wrong wrong wrong in every argument....

my marriage is not the same anymore.... he doesn’t even want me to stay at my family’s house.... I am not happy but I come from a family that does not believe in divorce..... any advice?