Repeated csection...

So I’ve had 2 vaginal births with no compilations. My 3rd child hard completely stopped on me & I was rushed to have a emergency csection. I felt the first cut & screamed my head off they didn’t knock me out as I had to wait for more medication to kick in.

I’m currently pregnant with my 4th child. I’ll be having a repeated csection as in Las Vegas they don’t believe in VBAC even tho they still do them. They scared my husband & I saying they’ll be a successful 60% of good birth. I don’t wanna risk it. So with me doing another c section. IM FREAKING THE F OUT!

I’m extremely scared of feeling them cut me open again. I’m scared of the whole procedure. I know the recovery gonna suck. I’m mentally prepared for that. I’m just not prepared to be cut open again.

I’m not due till January 14th. (I have never went to my due date I always give birth early) I have some time to calm my nerves.

Anyone else felt this? I know I’m over reacting I just can’t stop think about it.