Hurt Feelings

So let me start off by saying, my parents go divorced when I was around 2 and my father got remarried almost right away to the woman he was cheating on my mom with. I never really got along with my stepmother or her daughter ( who is a year older than me) my stepmother always talked about my weight, and made sure she put her daughter 1st at all times. When I graduated high school in 2010 my father and I had a falling out because of my stepmother. I have only seen him around 4 times in 9 years.

Then I decide to go to Walmart a couple of months ago and i run into him. We talked, he even cried and apologized for not being in my life these past years, and said he wanted that to change. I thought maybe he was telling the truth so I decided to write him on Facebook at Easter, we had a very short conversation, if you can really call it that. Then I messaged him on father's day, again one response than nothing, he then messaged me on my birthday to say happy birthday, then nothing else.

So a couple of weeks ago I decided to write him to tell him a few things he didn't know about me, about my depression, anxiety, insulin Resistance, and the fact I have a very small chance of ever getting pregnant. He read it and never replied. Until...

My step Sister had her second baby today, Though I may not like her, I'm very happy for her, she had a very beautiful and healthy little girl.

But after not hearing from my father for almost 2 weeks, he sent me 4 pictures of the baby with her weight. So of course I was polite and said congratulations, to which he replied thank you, and again nothing else.

I know this is a very long post, but I just really needed to get this off my chest, my depression is trying to get to me again, and I'm fighting it off the best way I know how. Thanks in advance to anyone who reads this jumbled up mess lol.