Am I abnormal?

I can masturbate and feel really amazing from it but I’ve never orgasmed. I’ve tried porn and going faster but my body does like shaking when it’s approaching an orgasm and it just freaks me out and I’m instantly not in the mood anymore.

It’s like I’m on the edge of coming but I can’t “fall” off it. I’ve been trying for a year now and can’t get toys and I’m worried that maybe there’s something wrong with me?

There’s girls younger than me who have orgasmed and I definitely want to do so and I can’t tell if it’s the “shakes” that throw me off or the pressure of wanting one. Even tho I don’t orgasm I can still feel good from it.