Just waiting...

I'm still in my TWW after having IUI done on the 1st... It's killing me. I just have to make it to the end of the week to test again (I tested too early out of anxiety). I had a bad nightmare last night and that is how my mom always knew she was pregnant (all 9 times) and I swear my breasts seem different and I cry easily... but I got a BFN so far. I'm so nervous that it will be negative again and I will have to start over next cycle. Idk how I would be able to handle it again. Just so anxious.