Bleeding at 6+3 days

So in June of this year I had a miscarriage. Husband and I have been trying for just shy of 2 years. I was shocked when in early this month (Sept) I got a bfp once again! Everything was going great until 2 days ago. On Friday @ 6 was+3 days I started spotting. It was brownish when I went to the bathroom with a slight pinkish hue. Notified the OB and they said since I already had an ultrasound scheduled for Monday, and since it was only spotting without cramping I could wait. I worked both days this weekend (ER Nurse) even took a lighter assignment. Spotting all throughout both days. It’s 1AM Monday now and I was woken by a feeling of gush (sorry TMI) I go to the bathroom and it appears to get getting heavier. As of yet no real cramping and haven’t noticed clots. I’m just so distraught. Why does my body keep doing this to me! I just want to have a happy,healthy baby. I’m trying to remain hopeful but it’s not looking good. As the days pass I fall further into a depression. I feel like someone doesn’t want me to bear a child. What have I done wrong to deserve this in my life?!? I’m sorry I just needed to get this all out. This year has been very rough on my mental well-being and I don’t know how much stronger I can be. If this does end in another miscarriage idk if I have the strength to try again. Or even have sex for that matter. What’s the point!??