I am a nervous wreck. 🤦😬

I am posting this in hope for advice or for somebody to tell me I am not alone. Not really sure. I just feel like I need to get this out..

To start, I have been lucky enough to always be a stay at home mom. If we needed extra money I would babysit or sell things online. But as for working, I've never had a "real job" before.

My SO and I have 3 boys. They've all been in school for years now. But my SO always worked 2nd or 3rd shift until recently. Which means we'd need a babysitter and it's so expensive. We didn't want me to work to pay for that. Seems pointless.

But now my SO works at a school so he has perfect hours. Decent pay. We get family time. Everything has been great. I now have the opportunity to work at the same school with him. That sounds wonderful. We can double our monthly income. We can have more savings. Be able to do more things. Family vacation. Not feel guilty about money. Everything we could want.

Sounds perfect right?

I'm sure it will be. But I am a nervous wreck! Today I am supposed to call to get fingerprinted and have my background check ran. No doubt I'll pass. That's not the issue.. it's the actual calling and setting up the appointment that has me already so anxious. Since my SO works there and is so well liked my chances of getting the job are very high. I still need an interview and everything just like anybody. I'm just in my own head about everything.

What if I do bad? That's ok, at least I tried. I keep telling myself that. I should still be proud that I did it. What if I do great and get the job? That's scary! I am not sure why. I want to do something with my life. Beyond, having kids and taking care of the house. I want to do things for myself. So that shouldn't be scary but it is.

Anybody have any words of advice on how to not freak out about this. How do I keep my anxiety down? Anything is appreciated.