Broken

Ugh I cant stop crying

I been crying for like 3 days now

My husband/childs father is a douche

The crazy thing is I was trying to leave him when I ended up getting pregnant and thought we could fix things so I stayed...

Well turns out people never change

He has downed me several times and even told me he doesnt care what happens to me or the baby

I don't even care anymore I just wish I could leave

He completely ignores me doesnt even ask how I'm doing or the baby and I cant stand it!!!!!!!

Hes acting like he has say in what we name the baby and his momma too but they both suggested in the beginning that I get an abortion

I just feel like your not gonna stand there and act like you're involved when you're not

He did this with my son too and I let him get away with it

He abused me while I was pregnant with him and was barely even there during my labor I was even surprised he was there when I birthed him but shortly after that he left again

He didnt help me at all when he was a baby even 1 time all I ask is for him to watch him while i pee and he let him fall off the bed

There's just things you dont forget as a woman

I've tried to forgive but i cant do it anymore

I wish i could just leave but i have no one

Sorry for the long post but I have no one to talk to and I'm just tired of being ignored and mistreated and told it's my fault that I'm pregnant...