So Much Stress 😭😭

I have probably already posted this one...or two times.. but I have been so incredibly, miserably stressed this pregnancy. The more I try to relax the worse I feel.

Tonight, my mom took me and my almost 2 yr old to the Chinese buffet. My husband went into work on his day off.. (that's a different story). My daughter hadn't taken her nap all afternoon like she usually does, so she was VERY awful. She was running around the restaurant, my mom kept walking her outside because she wanted me to eat. I was crying over my food. I lost my appetite. My daughter kept screaming. I tried to have her sit next to me and she threw such a fit that my plate of salad flew into both of us. I was screaming at my husband when he finally called me back because he wasn't supposed to be at work and I couldn't deal with everything on my own, which I really could if I had to. I was so stressed though that nothing was okay in my eyes. My mom barely got to eat even a plate of food because she insisted at least I eat. Nothing really got done today that my husband and I were supposed to do because he wanted reasons to be at work and not home. He's still at work by the way. He tells me not to stress because it's not good for the baby etc. but he doesn't understand that he isn't helping me to not stress.

Honestly, I'm still fuming while typing this and it may all seem trivial and what not, it probably is, but I'm 26 Weeks and 1 Day and I have completely forgotten what relaxing is like and what being rational is. I've told my Dr over and over about my stress and nothing has been said or done about it. My blood pressure has been fine and all of my bloodwork and check ups have been good. I really just want a long vacation where there is absolutely no possible way for my husband to go to work and he can be around our daughter more so I don't have to be mom and dad 7 days a week. (My mom was a single mom, so I know it's possible and not a real reason to complain. I just really want my husband to be more present.)

OH! And to add to my stress, we just found out that my grandma has two aortic aneurysms in her heart and is basically waiting at home to die because the drs said there is nothing they can do about it.....

I'm done ranting I guess. Sorry, for wasting your time. I'm still stressed and this didn't help....😭😭😭😭😭😭