Wishing I didn’t have a midwife

I decided to go the natural route and opt for a birthing center where they provided me with a midwife or really which ever midwife is on duty and I regret my decision.

Im 15 weeks and have had a total of 3 appointments one at 8weeks, 10 weeks and 15 weeks. I haven’t had an ultrasound and heard the baby’s heart beat on their Doppler once which was today at 15 weeks. They said I’ll have an ultrasound at 18-22 weeks for the anatomy scan but that’s it 😣 I just feel detached from these people like I’m not really a patient there. Every appointment they ask me how I’m doing and if I have any questions but they’ve yet to really talk to me about birth ect... today I asked if they do lotus birth and the lady said “yes if you want” and that’s it she didn’t even try to elaborate. Any thoughts?

UPDATE: I don’t believe in the block button so any nasty or rude comments will get cussed tf out! 😌🤷🏾‍♀️