I thought I could do it

I pumped for a long time with my last baby and with this one, I can barely wake up to feed her. I want to keep pumping, but this last few days I think I ruined it. Its just me and the kids so I dont really have any support or help. I barely have time to eat. I am not getting what i was getting the first week and i don't want to switch her to formula yet but I think I have to, not that I can afford it though. I really just wanted to get this off my mind, I'm already sad enough so I don't really need any rude comments.