Hating how I look.

This is my second baby, so I knew going into this my body was going to change. After I had my first, I lost the weight quickly and I felt that I looked better than I did before I had a baby! I was healthy and probably the most toned and happy with my body. Now, I’m 25 weeks and I’m puffy and my thighs and butt are lumpy and cellulite and my love handles are coming in. I’m trying to eat healthy but let’s be real, when you want a few cookies it’s going to happen. I know it’s temporary, but I’m going to sound so shallow when I say I’m worried I won’t get my body back this time. I struggle with anxiety that I take medication for (stopped when I got pregnant.) this is just making my anxiety a million times worse. I know I’m growing a person, and I am proud of my body and thankful I’m able to do so, but I absolutely hate how I look and know it’s only going to get worse. I’m just venting I guess. This is the only thing stopping me from crying.