One more month

Hi everyone, I have to beautiful daughters 8 and 7 , am 24 years old. I been TTC for the past year , and no luck my boyfriend of 4 years he's a great step dad to my kids , and we decide that it was time to have a baby , but I don't think I want to more , it's been a year . every month I get disappointed. I don't wanna keep going thru that , but at the same time I do want to.