I officially decided to give up

I can’t do it anymore. breastfeeding has taken a huge toll on me. My daughter is 3 and a half weeks. First was dealing with supply issues and latching. We finally got that down and my pain was starting to subside then I just found out we both have thrush. I’m in so much pain every time she latches. Shes always on the boob I don’t have time for my other kids or for anything for that matter. I’m starting to get depressed. I just decided that was it. It sucks because I wanted to so bad. I wanted the bond, I wanted her to get the best possible. What is insane to me is she spits up my breast milk so much and never when we’ve had to supplement. I don’t know whats wrong with me or why something “natural” doesn’t seem natural at all for some mothers but I’m drained and I just don’t think it’s worth it anymore 😪