Sad thoughts

It’s really hard to see people who were taking all the precautions not to, end up getting pregnant. I’m so so happy for her. But damn my heart fucking hurts.

AND MY UTERUS. Like I’m literally ALWAYS cramping and in pain and it just reminds me that something is wrong and makes me heart hurt worse.

My doctors are finally starting to take a serious look at things but it’s taken me over a month to even come close to getting ahold of my doctor. I just want to grow a baby☹️

Just a little venting session I guess. Thank you. That is all.