Just need to vent

Last night I pretty much had a full on nervous breakdown in front of my boyfriend about my postpartum depression (I'm 8 weeks pp) and the problems in our relationship that have really started to hurt me. Lately he's been falling asleep on the couch most nights even though I've told him how important it is to me to sleep next to him. When he gets home from work he'll sit on the other side of the couch and doesn't even both to touch me. I'll ask him how his day was and he'll tell me, never asking me about mine. We haven't had sex in over a week. Last night I told him all of that and he got mad because I was just telling him "what he does wrong". Then I told him how sometimes I think that I shouldn't have ever had a baby and that she deserves a better role model. I told him how depressed I was. I was having a full blown panic attack and he told me he was going outside to smoke a cigarette and walked away from me. He went to work today and I was at home with our daughter. I started having a panic attack and I wasn't comfortable being alone with our daughter at this point so I asked him to come home from work. He came home to give me a break, only to fall asleep on the couch 3 hours later and leave me to take care alone of her knowing that I desperately needed a break. I'm at a loss. I feel like he doesn't care and doesn't want to be here for me.