Guilt After Leaving Abusive Relationship

I finally did it. I left, I packed all my things in my car and I left. But I feel so guilty... how could I leave behind the man I loved alone by himself in the home, I’m trying not to contact him but it’s so hard. I want to go back to him... has anyone dealt with this, any tips or suggestions? I know if I go back he’s gonna seriously injure/ kill me.. but apart of me just wants to be around him.. what do I do?