Buying baby stuff early..

I’ve had two late miscarriages which were a shock after three healthy babes... so my first ultrasound I was 18weeks and we had started the nursery and I had a ton of baby stuff to only have to store it away after losing the baby... so with the next pregnancy I barely bought anything as I was worried it would happen again... then I passed 12 weeks and started shopping and lost her at 14...

So now I’m only 5weeks and I can’t stop buying things and starting a registry and looking at baby names. 🙈 My Husband has even started looking at a car to fit a family of six..

Are we crazy? What are we doing? Am I being dumb getting too attached so early? I am still so anxious about losing this baby yet I keep buying and planning for the future.. I want this baby so badly 😭😭