Absolutely terrified

2019 is going to get worse.

In april we lost my pregnancy with our daughter.

In June, we nearly lost my son to a very traumatic drowning accident. He was found lifeless. He is okay now but, we still struggle with the trauma from it.

In August my significant other lost his job of 9 years.

2 weeks later, in August, I had an early miscarriage. So, another loss.

Yesterday I lost my job of 3 years. Because my job provides my home..we lost our home too. I have 2 weeks to find somewhere to live and no money..

Today, we lost one of our cats. We realized we had not seen him since yesterday. No idea how. Can't figure out when he could have possibly even managed to slip through a door. He doesnt even ever try to so it doesn't make sense.

The loss keeps coming and getting bigger. I'm so scared loss of a loved one is next. Like physically unable to function because I am so terrified.

This has been the most trying time. I've been through a lot and I have over come a lot but, this..this is a whole different type of struggle and I don't know what to do...