I messed up and I feel conflicted. My boyfriend and I were used to fooling around, and occasionally having sex... when we stopped a year ago and he got baptized into the church. I have yet to be baptized but I still want to.

Well occasionally we make out, that's our limit. We let it get to us the other night and stopped before something happened. But tonight his hand went up my shorts and in me. And I went down on him and we had that "OH NO" realization at the same time.

We both feel like garbage human beings right now and he considered breaking up because this is the second time.

We are scared to go to our bible studies because they will tell us to break up again constantly. So he wanted to go to his dad who is working on being a pastor but in the end that looks bad on me. In fact today his dad was telling him he loves me as a daughter. And my mom doesn't know anything about it. I'm 20 almost 21 and he's 20.

The first thing we did was set newer, more strict boundaries.

Does anyone have any scriptures/words of wisdom/reassurance/advice for us? And do we go to our church group members or no? Please help we really feel terrible... awful, ashamed.