Have never kissed a boy, never had a bf.

My friend just lost her virginity tonight and now I feel like I gotta rush and get mine over with. I have been wanting to lately I’m and I’ll I’m ready. I’ve always just been shy or picky with the boys I talk to. I’ve been asked out several times but I just was never into them or I’d get too nervous to go on the date so I’d cancel.

Someone help 😩. The guy I do wanna fuck lives in England but he’s planning on coming over the end of February but like wtfff man