Feeling disconnected from hubby and lost ..☹️

I’m 10 weeks PP and these past couple weeks I’ve just been started to feel low. Low about everything, my self esteem, my parenting my looks and I don’t know how I feel. Just numb. With my first, I truly believe I had PPD and by month 4 I got pregnant again and those feeling “kinda” went away. I do have a history of depression but it slowly got better and I can coupe but lately my anxiety has gotten bad. I’m still on maternity leave but I technically go back next week and I just wanna stay home. My husband told me I could stay home but then again I think, I do wanna work just so we can have spending money. But when I do think about work, I get all up in my own head, overthink and that makes my anxiety so bad. I panic at the thought of me leaving my kids and missing all their milestones. Anddd then there’s, my husband. Lately I just feel so disconnected and distant with him. He comes home from work and it seems like he doesn’t wanna converse or anything and goes straight to watching tv or bed. I mean I get it, he’s worked all day and wants to relax but it’s been hard. Like I want to want him; to have intimacy, to have that crazy I love you sex. To have those goofy laughs,and to go back to the time we dated. I love my mans to the moon and back but I just we just feel distant and I don’t know how to bring it up. Am I wrong for feeling this way?

Seems like I lost who I am. I don’t know who this person is, over than a mom of 2 under 2.