Should be 20 weeks today...

Just over 3 weeks ago I lost my baby. We've been slowly working through our grief together, and working back to "normal" life. I knew some dates would hit me, including my second scan which was booked for next Tuesday, and my due date. I didn't realise the halfway mark would also be one.

When I was pregnant with my first, I announced on Social Media and 20 weeks, with a bump photo and Bon Jovi quote. From soon after I found out I was expecting again, I wanted to do the same, but with both bump photos for comparison.

I couldn't do that, and even feel like if I get pregnant again I won't want to do it that time, because I was meant to do it today, not a few months or years down the line from here. It feels like such a silly thing to be upset about.

I'm not sure what I'm hoping to get out of posting this, I haven't posted before, but I felt I needed to tell someone.