this is gonna cause problems in my friend group

alright so, one of my best friends had a thing with one of our boy best friends. i’ve had feelings for this kid for 2 years.

so now, my other best friend likes him and she told me to tell him,, so i did and he says he doesn’t like her back. 4 of my other best friends know but we don’t know how to tell her so we told him he has to and he’s going to.

deep down (i don’t wanna seem self-centered or anything), i honestly think he likes me. listen, we spend literally EVERY SECOND WE CAN TOGETHER! every time someone makes plans in our group and i can’t go, he gets upset and asks me why and then begs me to go. every time someone makes a joke and we laugh, he looks at me and smiles. we have our own inside jokes and our own handshakes and i’m probably closer to him than most of my other friends. i’m not saying that he for sure likes me. i’m just saying that its a possibility BUT HERES THE PROBLEM...

no one knows that i still have feelings for him. i told my friends that i did 2 years ago when i first realized that i did but when he and my best friend started talking, i told everyone that i was over him. If I Were To Tell Them, They Would Tell Him, And Stuff Happen. Not Good Stuff.

i really don’t wanna be known as the snake bitch but i also really need to tell someone so that i can get over him. people already call me a hoe (i’ve only ever had a thing with 3 guys and NOT at the same time and i only officially dated one of them) i don’t wanna add to that reputation and i’m scared i’m gonna lose friends over this and i just really needed to get it off my chest rq.

UPDATE****

ahahahahahaha something i FORGOT to add is that another one of my guy friends is literally texting my friends PARAGRAPHS about the things he likes abt me and i hate being in situations like this because someone is gonna get their feelings hurt

UPDATE 2****

he found out and won’t talk to me now! he pulled a few dick moves today so now, i don’t really want to talk to him.