I've known my BF was narcissistic from day one. I knew he could be mean and cruel when he got angry... But we'd never really fought until a few months ago.

I tried to make a friend, she was a lesbian. And I've always been into women but never had the courage to try it. I really cared for her but it never went further than a friendship... But he didn't trust it. We started fighting. I'd offer to not talk to anymore to eliminate the problem. But he'd yell and get mad because then he'd look controlling....

But even when I went to my straight friends house he got irritated...

But i keep talking to her and he's still furious... I finally blocked her, and stopped talking to her. But he's still making his comments...

He's always finding reasons to purposely try and make me look bad even when I haven't done anything wrong. In our relationship, our home, with our children...

Stupid shit. If you want i can give examples I'm just giving you the jist.

He threatened to leave me.... And would barely look at me... Now tries to act as if nothing happened....

He yells, he screams..... He's awful to me... And i never even raise my voice. Half the time I'm silent... I've never done any thing to this man but love him, and support him... I don't understand what i did...

I don't know what to do.... And my heart is breaking... I don't know where I could go if i left. How i could start over... His 2 children aren't mine... I don't want to lose them..

Hell i don't want to lose him either... But i can't keep losing myself...