Lesbian couple ttc

So my partner and I have decided on having a child and we both agree that the "turkey basting method" isn't going to work so we found an awesome donor who is happily willing to help us start a family . At first I was all for it because I do want a family but today is the day they will "do the deed" and I'm freaking out to the point of tears I'm not jealous or am I? HelpÂ