I’m scared

Just need to vent. It looks like our baby has either a nuchal translucency or early signs of a septated cystic hygroma. The fluid sac was measuring 3.9mm and the baby was measuring about 10 weeks 6 days. I am going for a CVS procedure to rule out chromosome abnormalities.

I’m scared for the procedure. I’m scared for the results. I’m scared at the thought of losing the baby. I’m scared about having to make the decision to terminate. I’m scared about not knowing what is wrong.

I feel broken, like something is wrong with me. Why couldn’t I just have a normal healthy pregnancy? This is my first.