Major meltdown😭😭😭

Husband and I were arguing about how when his friends are over I never talk to him or ask him questions but I'll ask them stuff all the time. I completely disagree and said when his friends are a round he completely ignores me and its all about the dirt bikes or whatever. I said I ask you everyday how's work, or did you have a good day yet me never asks me about my day. I even brought up the fact that when I told him his cousin announces her pregnancy he never asked me how I felt. And then I lost it. I just started bawling and said I lost my baby!! Don't you understand? Everyone I know is either finding out the gender or announcing they are pregnant and I'm angry, so angry. I should be finding out the gender and being able to feel our baby kick but no. I have an empty stomach and a heavy heart. Something went wrong and my baby didn't grow, it died. And I didn't even know it! I didn't feel like something was off. My baby was dead inside me for 5 weeks and I didn't have a clue. Its been 2 months since I found out and I feel like I'm living the horror all over again. I don't want to be angry that people are having babies I want to be happy but I can't. Thanks for always letting me vent, my husbands thinks I'm always in fb but I'm always here talking to you.