no one has felt the same since.

ever since my ex, I haven’t felt any romantic or sexual feelings towards any other person. it’s hard for me to open up and I really really opened up to him and I was so comfortable, so in love. and he just wasn’t matching it. he wasn’t ready for a relationship and his mental health was bad and I was collateral damage. it really really fucking hurt me. guys flirt with me and I like the attention for a minute but then it just fizzles out because I let it. and then I think about my ex and how easy it was with him. and how I really miss that and him. i’m so sick of feeling this way... and i hate seeing him happy when i feel like shit. why am i the one that’s hurting? it’s not fair. how do I get past it?

I just want to feel genuinely happy without him again. I feel like I will never go back to who I was before him. It makes me so upset.