Giving up

I had a surgical abortion march of 2018. Have had regular periods since and have recurring bv for the past few months. I don’t feel like I’ve been ovulating but my obgyn says my ovaries and pelvic area look fine. It’s been a year and a half and I still have not been able to get pregnant. I’ve also been passing mucus with my gas during my ”fertility window” but I haven’t been able to set up an appointment with the gi. I don’t feel that has to be a reason as to why I can’t pregnant. I planned on seeing the fertility doctor but they’re booked till February of next year. And I’ve really given up hope cause I feel like I’m the only one really concerned about the matter. Something isn’t right but I’m not getting answers. I just needed to vent. I feel like I’m being punished for the abortion.