I’m in prison!!

Hey Everyone,

May I please have some advice. My husband and I go married 11 months ago and we’ve been living together for 3 years. We’ve always discussed moving and relocation to start our family with excitement. Originally I wanted to move closer to my family in Atlanta , I lost my grandmother in 2016 and she raised me so living in my childhood city has been haunting . I spend a lot of my time indoors afraid to go outside and I’m always taking Uber’s everywhere. Since we’ve been together he’s been fired from most of his jobs and this job he’s had for 2 years now hes had issues progressing but he’s been flourishing a few months now. I’ve been going through a depression , not only is my family far away , my grandmother is gone and I no longer have the friends I once did. NY reminds me of so many good and bad memories and I feel like I’m in some weird alternate universe where i remember everything alone. His whole family is here, he hangs out with his neighborhood friends afterwork and he loves his job. I tell him I’m so miserable can we move we don’t have to go where my family is I just feel so sad. He says he’s struggled with jobs so much and he’s finally happy, that I run away from all my problems and imbeing selfish. After a argument where I tried to explain that I feel like it’s painful here he says he is not forcing me to stay , that he doesn’t want me to be unhappy and blaming him for my unhappiness. I’m can’t stop crying because idk what to do I want him to be great and I love him but I’m in so much pain everyday.