No period, no baby

I posted a few days ago on the day AF was due hoping she wouldn’t show. Well she didn’t, I’m now 4 days late. I took a test yesterday and of course it was negative. My husband and I aren’t actively trying to conceive because I refuse to take the fun out of our time together, however I do know when I’m ovulating.

Who cares, am I right? Lol so here I am venting on my fertility app. A little backstory: my husband is military and we moved to a new state this year and obviously neither of us knew anyone out here before we came, so I feel like I’ve slipped into a bit of depression. I had two jobs, now I only work part time. I really have a hard time wanting to do anything. So maybe having a baby right now is a good thing until I get my shit together.. and trust me, I WILL get my shit together.

I’ve distanced myself from pretty much everyone. And I don’t even want pity here because that is definitely not what I’m looking for. I just needed to get all of this off my chest. Husband is leaving for a couple weeks for work and I just feel it getting worse and worse. But I refuse to let that happen. We plan on moving across the damn country (again) at the beginning of the year and I’m working on myself and I’m gonna take these next couple of weeks and really focus on me, myself, & I.

So thank you ladies for letting me use this space to vent. I adore each and every one of you and I love the support I feel from this group.

Xoxo. 💛