TW!! My babies❤

So, we went to a routine appointment at mfm just to check on our babies. Went in excited about finding out the gender of baby b (baby a is a girl)but were given the worst possible news. We lost our little Reagan (baby a). Everything looked perfectly fine at our 16wk appointment, but she passed soon after that. At the last appointment both babies weighed in at 5 ounces, today Reagan was 6oz and Riley (who we now know is another girl 🥳) is 11oz. Such a bittersweet moment knowing that I still get to have a baby girl, but seeing little Reagan all balled up and not moving was extremely hard. The fact that I now have to go in every 2 weeks to see a healthy baby and a deceased baby will be so traumatizing and painful for me. Also telling everyone the news will be hard. I know that it will be even more traumatic having to birth her. The dr was very empathetic, asking me if I had any questions. I didn't. I'm sure I'll think of some later tho. It felt like I was walking out of a funeral as we left the hospital today. Such a wave of emotions right now, trying to grieve and still keep my stress down for my little Riley. Yall, I am really lost right now😭❤