As I am laying in bed just scrolling through glow at all the woman who are expecting baby #1, #2, etc. For the first time in 1 year & 3 months of TTC’ing for baby #2 my heart is hurting. For the past year I’ve gotten sad and mad but not to the point where I have started to literally cry not to the point where I can feel actual pain in my heart. Not only that last month I swear I got a faint line but then a week later I had the HEAVIEST flow I’ve had since having my daughter. Even the pain was so bad I felt like I had just given birth all over again. Mind you my periods have not been that heavy in a long time even this month it’s super light I literally don’t even need to wear a pad. So that really makes me believe I had a chemical pregnancy. 😢 I know how bad my husband wants another baby & I really want to give our daughter a sibling as well. I can’t help but think something is wrong with me. Sorry for the rant just needed to let it out. My husband is dealing with so much already I don’t want him to have to worry about me being sad over this too.

But on a high note I feel so blessed to have my daughter. She really saved me and makes me a better me everyday. ❤️