I feel so guilty when I masturbate

I’m trying to have a relationship with God but its really difficult to get close to hom knowing I’m doing something wrong.

I try not to do it and then I get it right for a week/two but then I give in and I feel SOOO guilty.

I don’t watch porn or anything so is it okay to do it?

I’ve been masturbating since I was 12/13.

Im 16 now.

Its just been such a part of my life and I’m struggling to let go.

The thing is I do want to save myself for marriage and I’m afraid that masturbating will kind of influence or ruin that.

Any advice would be great xx

And also some turn offs 😂