So, I don't want my ex back, he was emotionally abusive and narcissistic... this is 2 relationships later and about a year and a half after the breakup...

I knew him for 10 years, and I was obsessed with him. I fell in love with him a few years in, we were sleeping together off and on 8 yrs, then we dated officially 8 months- he manipulated me into the relationship, I no longer wanted to be with him, but I did love him. It went well at first, we planned to get married and buy a house, but we never got that far because he got very emotionally abusive. He took over my life & nearly ended all my friendships.

Most of that 10 yrs, I thought of him daily. And sometimes I don't think much of him, but most of the time, I think of him every day, still.

Is it just a habit? Is it because he was so important in my life and in my development into being an adult? He was there for everything... but not really, he was distant a lot of the time.

Usually I like to think of him, but sometimes it's very negative, because I have terrible memories of him. I think how I hope he's ok and I wonder if he'd be proud of me.

Do you think about your ex daily even if you no longer want to be with them?