Ttc after endometriosis

Sorry guys. I have to rant.. I have been so depressed lately about not being able to get pregnant. What is wrong with me? I’ve had two endometriosis surgery’s. I feel like a failure. It kills me to go to my OBGYN office because I see all the smiling faces and it hurts me.. I hate being that way.. I love that they get to experience it. And I feel like a terrible person for being jealous and hurt.

I had my second surgery in August... still no baby. Absolutely heartbroken.