I just don’t feel the same..

So recently I have been under a lot of stress. I do it to myself and I hold myself to a high standard and I know that is part of my issue but I can’t seem to change it. It doesn’t mean it’s a bad thing but I wish I could over come it because it is painful to my body. Holiday season can be amazing but stressing with money and relationships makes it hard. I recently gained a quite a bit of weight and I am so uncomfortable with myself and it makes me insecure. I don’t really care what people think because I know that I do have a good life and people who support me but recently its taken a different direction. While I do want to loose weight and just be healthy I can’t find the time for it. But I have not had a single urge to eat recently. Nothing sounds good and my belly never feels empty. I have tried to eat but just get so full so quick. I know for a fact I have seasonal depression but each year it gets worse. I do take vitamin D, or try to once a day and I try to keep myself busy but I am just at a stand still. I don’t know if it’s stress or my body just automatically taking over and starving itself (lol I wish) I just need advice. I want to work out and be healthy. Not to be those things but to feel good about myself and be confident but I work full time and go to school full time and I still have to keep a clean house and a social life. I’m just burnt out and now I’m not even hungry 😕 any advice?