Is there anybody out there???

Hi all, It’s almost ironic that I sit here and type this....

I am 32 and have always been one of those women who had not given babies much thought - you could say I don’t (or didn’t maybe?) have the strongest maternal instincts (unless it came to baby animals lol) it’s always been a big joke in my family about how I am so awkward when it comes to pregnancy and babies, anyway, I have been with my wonderful partner for two years and about 5.5 weeks ago we got the news that I was pregnant - very early along..I had gone to the doctors for blood tests for something completely unrelated and they called back with the news I was pregnant! Needless to say it was a massive shock, and quite frankly - a miracle. For a number of reasons, one being that my partner was told he would struggle to conceive naturally, but mostly because my parter also suffers from severe PTSD from sexual abuse as a child and struggles greatly with intimacy- to put it into perspective..for Mother Nature to do its thing that needs to happen for a women to get pregnant (seaman/vagina if you know what I mean) has only happened 3 time’s since we have been together. We have had sex more times then that - not by much lol but yes he doesn’t always get to that point and that’s ok because the man I first met struggled to even cuddle me without wanting to run. So, to get this news was overwhelming (not for him, he was absolutely over the moon) but as the days went by I got used to it and actually felt really special. We had known for just over a week on October 31st when I miscarried :( to say we were devastated is understatement, for more reasons than most couples who go through this. To have something taken away that you didn’t realise you wanted or could do has been tough and of course we want to try again - but it’s not that easy for us you know..when we don’t do the thing that makes a baby that often. I’d like to disclose that he is in therapy, and we are very open about our issues and talk about it all the time so it’s not a taboo subject that he tries to avoid - we/he works on it every day and it’s heartbreaking to watch the man I love want something so bad but be crippled by fear at the thought of it. I guess the reason for my post is, and it know it’s a long one and a long shot but does any else have the same issues in their relationship? Can someone out there give me hope that one says he’s going to overcome this and we are going to be able to try like normal people to have a baby again?? He is so good to me, and I have given given and will continue to give him my all to help him get better but sometimes I feel like it’s a lost cause and I don’t like to show him how sad it makes me because he blames himself - which he shouldn’t. It is not his fault that he was robbed of his innocence and suffered a life of heartache and now struggles to do something that is so normal to most people. So, to summarise - I say it again. Is there anybody out there????? Anybody who can tell me it’s going to be ok.