Hey!!! Asexual here!

I'm sharing this because I want it to be read by someone who can feel less alone or weird.

I see myself aesthetically more into girls, not gonna lie, but I have a pansexual boyfriend (my first and only partner) and sometimes it can be so difficult.

Personally, I don't mind having sex, but my personal problems go beyond.

I have had a lot of sex, for the record, but in my case, it hurts everytime or I just don't feel physical stimulation.

For example, if he goes down on me, or massage my boobs I feel the same pleasure as if he was touching my knee.

Or during intercourse, sometimes I feel as if I were being punched, or it burns from the constant movement, even though I am well lubricated.

Moreover, most times I end up with gases in my lower belly that can last between a day and three.

So yeah, this can be really hard for both of us, and can really interfere with our feelings.

It's just so weird because one of us feel "a lot of emotions and sexual attraction" and the other one, AKA me, doesn't mind having sex (and I even get wet most of the times when I feel emotionally attached to him) but is quickly bored and hurted.