Just want to be sad for a moment

Today I got home from work and just melted into a puddle of tears and once they started I couldn't stop.

Today my best friend told me she's pregnant after only just starting to try. When a year ago she wasn't even sure if she wanted kids.

Don't get me wrong I am so happy for her. A baby is another blessing to this world. But I'm just a little sad for me. Sad that I cant seem to give my husband the family we both so desperately want. The baby I pray for each night.

And what makes it worse is that I'm pretty sure I'm out this month as I feel af on her way.

Soon I will get up and wash my face and begin supper. Tomorrow I will put a smile on my face. But for right now. I just want to be sad.

C