Coping with a genetic mutation

How do you cope with the possibility of your child having a disability or medical issue? I’m 13 weeks pregnant and we found out our baby has a 22q microduplication. Symptoms can range from none to autism, learning disability, trouble with motor skills, trouble eating, muscle hypotonia, etc. We are also dealing with a cystic hygroma and waiting to see if that clears up or if there are any heart defects. I’m just at a loss. This is my first pregnancy and supposed to be the happiest time in my life. I don’t know how to be happy or enjoy this.

Also the genetic mutation probably came from my husband or me, so our future children would have a 50% chance of getting this. I don’t know how I could ever go through this again and now I feel like our dreams of having more children are tainted now. I just feel like I’m in a very dark place and I’m jealous of others with happy healthy pregnancies. I’m just sick with sorry and feel so hopeless.