Just found out my sister is pregnant...

She told me she was late and I told her to take a test.. sure enough..positive.

I'm trying to be excited for her but I can't.

She wasn't trying.

My husband and I have been trying for a year and just got on the waitlist for a fertility doctor.

I don't know how I am going to be able to hold it together.

I am excited for her but so deeply saddened that she had no problems and it just happened.