Some advice..

If you tore.. do NOT look down there at only 1 week PP.. I’m a week and 5 days PP and I’ve been feeling a little bit better down there so I decided to take a peak and I regret it so much. Now I’m scared that it’ll never look “normal” again and I’m overall traumatized. 😂😫 I had/have 20 stitches total (I tore inside and up next to my clit..😓) and thought that I’d just look a bit swollen but normal with some stitches.. nope it looks like someone shot a grenade into my vagina and I’m not looking down there again until my appointment with my OBGYN. Please tell me it goes back to at least SOMEWHAT normal ladies.. I’m officially terrified.