Hello everyone. I’ll try to make this short but idk if that will be possible with all the sh*t I have gone through during this pregnancy.

I just became 25 weeks as of today. But I feel like trash because of the way my BD treats me and talks to me. We found out I was pregnant around the beginning of July. I didn’t get to see my OBGYN until the middle of August due to not having insurance. But since we have found out he has just been treating me like trash the entire time.

This is my first pregnancy so I didn’t know really what to except since everyone is different but my first trimester was horrible I was always tired I never felt like I got enough sleep. I work a full time job plus a bunch of overtime because of my job so there are weeks where I’ve worked 60+ hours a week. I use to clean my apartment every weekend when I had it off all three days off I was cleaning until I got pregnant than it slowly and slowly stopped cause I was soooo tired. That’s when my BD started to treat me like sh*t calling me lazy and that I don’t do anything except sleep all day. He never Ed helped me clean because his cleaning was half ass sh*t so I never let him because he was lazy.

Going into my second trimester things got better for me but his attitude towards me and temper has been slim to none. He constantly blames me for sh*t that isn’t my fault or that I don’t have control over. He always wants to start a fight then sit here and blames me for starting it because I tell him my opinion on things he’s bring up and when I don’t say anything he also blames me for not letting him know.

Now he’s telling me that we aren’t going to pay my part of my insurance deductible for my OBGYN cause we can’t afford the bill that is due by Christmas. On top of all of this he sent a girl 20 dollars from my money to help this girl with diapers and wipes and when I told him we don’t have the extra funds for that we need to start buying things for our baby he turns around and yells at me saying that our baby isn’t sh*t and doesn’t need sh*t because he’s not even born yet.

Idk what I have done to him for him to treat me as if my opinions and feelings aren’t worth being heard. I’ve done everything I can possibly do to make up for his lack of work and paying bills. And honestly I’m over it.

I thought this pregnancy was going to be relaxed and smooth but it’s been nothing but stress and depression.